a family reunioun

This morning, mom and I were discussing about raising funds for my expected arrival in Aussie. We were trying to gather some cash for my first few weeks. Then the topic shifted to our upcoming family reunion in December when my elder brothers are coming home here in the Philippines. We are expecting them to spend some time in our new house together with our nephews and niece. It would be a great Christmas for us since, I thought, we will be "complete". Out of no where, I asked my mom, "does dad know any of these?" My mom, blatantly said, "No."

It was a few weeks back when I noticed my mom cleaning and rummaging around our new house. At first, I thought, "it is about time to get rid of trash." What I meant of "trash" is dad's stuff. I thought maybe mom has finally getting rid of dad's trash. I did not know that she was getting rid of dad's memories.

I was eating my toasted bread this morning when mom handed me her celphone showing a text message from my aunt, dad's sister in law. It was a heartbreaking news I could not even swallow. But with a deep breath, I swallowed everything with a large gulp of orange juice. Now I know why dad has not been around for a while.

At this moment, I could not express the hurt and anger mixed in my heart towards him. I just could not believe that a decent man like him would do such a thing. Not only it hurts mom so much, it will also hurt my brothers and sister, their sons and daughters, and my other loved ones if they would know. It would hurt my family slowly like a venom poisons a soul. For me, I am truly and deeply hurt.

For now I am just clinging on Him above. I know that He would not give sorrows and pains that my family could not bear. We will be able to surpass this, with Him and prayers in our hearts. With His grace and love, I know I would be able to forgive him someday. I love God, and He loves my family.